Master Tyler turned 17 yesterday. Good Lord, how did THAT happen. I can't possibly be old enough to have a 22 year old AND a 17 year old, can I? He loved his gifts and seemed to have a pretty good weekend. We went shopping last night and he used some of his birthday cash for 2 new shirts. The rest he's saving for a game he pre-ordered. The seas shall rise up and swallow us up whole if we don't get him to Game Stop tomorrow to pick it up, I'm sure. :)

Started a rough mental outline for a new book. Kind of excited, VERY nervous. I've jotted down some character names I want to use. I still want to have the same basic concept as the last try, but I'm going to make some significant changes. It needs a lot more depth. More storytelling. It'll take me FOREVER because I don't have the time to just sit and write like I used to, but hopefully this one will be better than the last manuscript.  Blech. 

Jeff has some good leads for jobs, so I'm glad for that. Praying he has something by mid January. As it stands, we're fine until April but still....

So nice having Erin here with us again. Sometimes I just look at her and I'm SO THANKFUL that she's here. I've told her she's not allowed to move out again unless it's within a mile of here. She thought that was real cute. 

A. had a bad mammogram. Hoping the re-do comes out okay. My poor girl.

Work's been good. I hate how much I LOVE being back in the workforce. Makes the mother in me feel awfully guilty, and I don't know how to reconcile those two opposing feelings. I will say, that I feel very happy, as long as I know everything's okay at home, and that has to reflect on Jaxon a little bit. Just hard for him after having me at his beck and call his whole life.  

Sabrina's not looking well at all. The cancer just seems to be ravaging her poor little 6 year old body. It's shocking and heart breaking. I wish I could get up to Michigan, but there's just no way before January. And if Jeff isn't working, not even then. My fear is that the next time I get up there will be at her funeral. Never, have I hoped to be more wrong. 

I'm off to shut my eyes for 30 minutes and then fix dinner. Such an exciting life I lead.

Welp. It's been a while.

I hate my life right now. Not happy at all. Not exactly sure what to do to change it, but something's gotta give.

I need to write more. I need...something.

I hate feeling like this. HATE IT!

Hopefully, something more uplifting tomorrow.

Happy May!

In 16 days, I will be the mother of a 22 year old daughter. W-O-W. It kind of makes me sad. Time moves so swiftly.

Speaking of time...I'm watching an episode of Little House on the Prairie. One of the first episodes from 1974 called "Country Girls". It's still awesome, little Laura knocking Nellie on her arse. Priceless!

Work Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday nights. :/ Short shifts, but still 3 evenings in a row I won't get to tuck in my sweet little man. Breaks my heart. I love everything about being out of this house for a few hours EXCEPT not being here to put him to bed. Blah.

I need a nap. Maybe Jax and I will snuggle when he gets home.

Werkz

I'm about to start the first of two over-night shifts in a row. Blech. Hopefully, it will go by quickly like it usually does. Mostly, I hope I can come right home and sleep. Puhhhlllleeeeeze! 

Jeffery made dinner tonight. Sliders, fries and salad. Twas divine. We don't have beef hardly ever, so it was awesome. 

My boys are watching this:

Pretty cute when they watch their nerdy stuff. My Tyler, who is SO cool. *wink*

I'm off to put on a face, so I can go to work and sweat it off. Good times. :)

Stormy weathhhh-errrrr...

Lot's of storms around here this weekend. Thankfully, we didn't get anything too bad. God Bless the people who did. Storms HERE were pretty cool though. Nice and flashy and LOUD!

I'm pretty much in LOVE with this stormy weather.

I bought these little beauties yesterday, but I still haven't figured out where I want to put them.

Charlie--livin' the good life.

Sea-Salt crusted  baked potatoes are in the oven. Just waiting for Jeff and Jax to get back from the store with a nice steak. 

I'm seriously thinking about going off meat...again. Not sure though.

Sleepy...

1. I'm so sleepy. Not exhausted..just the kind of sleepy where your eyelids feel heavy and weird.

2. I screwed up my back yesterday. Jeff rubbed the knot out last night but it has returned.

3. I have to work tonight, so a sore back is really not an option.

4. I put on the movie, "No Strings Attached" with Ashton Kutcher and Natalie Portman, and I can honestly say that after about 15 minutes...it's horrible. Just horrible. So off it goes.

5. Charlie keeps bringing me toys to throw. Doesn't he understand that I'm too tired and sore to throw? Sheesh...silly puppy.

6. My most favoritest blogger ever, had a baby and she's not posting pictures/info yet and it's killing me. lol

7. I'm bored. I need to write I think, but I have to get organized about it, and there in lies the problems. The ADD makes it hard for me to do that. Okay, that's not completely true..I'm being lazy about it.

Le Sigh.

Sore...

I am tired. I worked an over night last night, and I'm pooped. I'm enjoying the working though. Not a lot of hours right now, but that's okay. I'm sure it'll get better, and seriously, I'm not sure how many I want right now anyhow. I'm old, every part of my body hurts, and while I generally like that I'm getting physical exercise, this is bad. I couldn't sleep when I got home because I hurt so much, and this was after taking 3 ibuprophen.

Jeff had a work dinner tonight, so I ordered Pete-zah. Slacker today, fo sho!

To YOU..I will say this.

I love you. I think you are truly a kind, loving person. BUT..because I feel that way, it's a lot more disappointing to me when you get all judgmental on people. I can't believe that you don't see it. Like back in the fall. It wasn't enough for you to just say..."Hey..this is the way we do things, I hope you'll all respect our beliefs and if you don't too bad." You had to go ON AND ON about how evil those of us are who do things differently than you.. Lying to our children and such. How can you not see that as judging? And you never even apologized. Now I get why...because you're not sorry....because you did it AGAIN the other day. Cripes. If you're going to judge 90% of the population then at least have the guts to leave out the "but we don't judge" part. We ALL judge, from time to time, but at least we try to keep it to ourselves.

And just so we're clear. I will say something out loud and proud EVERY SINGLE TIME you pull this crap...because I expect better of you. Who are you trying to impress? You used to get mad at people who crammed their belief's down everyone else's throat on FB..and how you're doing it. Why did that change? Is this about your Mom? It's so weird...you're so different now than you were even a year ago..and I even went back and re-read a bunch of our old posts and messages. You are different..more cramming that religion in at every turn, more bragging about every little thing. More...we're perfect parents because we do things this way and if you don't do things this way then you all suck.

I'm not trying to be mean, just my observations.

Ehh..that's all I got.