Master Tyler turned 17 yesterday. Good Lord, how did THAT happen. I can't possibly be old enough to have a 22 year old AND a 17 year old, can I? He loved his gifts and seemed to have a pretty good weekend. We went shopping last night and he used some of his birthday cash for 2 new shirts. The rest he's saving for a game he pre-ordered. The seas shall rise up and swallow us up whole if we don't get him to Game Stop tomorrow to pick it up, I'm sure. :)

Started a rough mental outline for a new book. Kind of excited, VERY nervous. I've jotted down some character names I want to use. I still want to have the same basic concept as the last try, but I'm going to make some significant changes. It needs a lot more depth. More storytelling. It'll take me FOREVER because I don't have the time to just sit and write like I used to, but hopefully this one will be better than the last manuscript.  Blech. 

Jeff has some good leads for jobs, so I'm glad for that. Praying he has something by mid January. As it stands, we're fine until April but still....

So nice having Erin here with us again. Sometimes I just look at her and I'm SO THANKFUL that she's here. I've told her she's not allowed to move out again unless it's within a mile of here. She thought that was real cute. 

A. had a bad mammogram. Hoping the re-do comes out okay. My poor girl.

Work's been good. I hate how much I LOVE being back in the workforce. Makes the mother in me feel awfully guilty, and I don't know how to reconcile those two opposing feelings. I will say, that I feel very happy, as long as I know everything's okay at home, and that has to reflect on Jaxon a little bit. Just hard for him after having me at his beck and call his whole life.  

Sabrina's not looking well at all. The cancer just seems to be ravaging her poor little 6 year old body. It's shocking and heart breaking. I wish I could get up to Michigan, but there's just no way before January. And if Jeff isn't working, not even then. My fear is that the next time I get up there will be at her funeral. Never, have I hoped to be more wrong. 

I'm off to shut my eyes for 30 minutes and then fix dinner. Such an exciting life I lead.

Welp. It's been a while.

I hate my life right now. Not happy at all. Not exactly sure what to do to change it, but something's gotta give.

I need to write more. I need...something.

I hate feeling like this. HATE IT!

Hopefully, something more uplifting tomorrow.

Happy May!

In 16 days, I will be the mother of a 22 year old daughter. W-O-W. It kind of makes me sad. Time moves so swiftly.

Speaking of time...I'm watching an episode of Little House on the Prairie. One of the first episodes from 1974 called "Country Girls". It's still awesome, little Laura knocking Nellie on her arse. Priceless!

Work Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday nights. :/ Short shifts, but still 3 evenings in a row I won't get to tuck in my sweet little man. Breaks my heart. I love everything about being out of this house for a few hours EXCEPT not being here to put him to bed. Blah.

I need a nap. Maybe Jax and I will snuggle when he gets home.

Werkz

I'm about to start the first of two over-night shifts in a row. Blech. Hopefully, it will go by quickly like it usually does. Mostly, I hope I can come right home and sleep. Puhhhlllleeeeeze! 

Jeffery made dinner tonight. Sliders, fries and salad. Twas divine. We don't have beef hardly ever, so it was awesome. 

My boys are watching this:

Pretty cute when they watch their nerdy stuff. My Tyler, who is SO cool. *wink*

I'm off to put on a face, so I can go to work and sweat it off. Good times. :)

Stormy weathhhh-errrrr...

Lot's of storms around here this weekend. Thankfully, we didn't get anything too bad. God Bless the people who did. Storms HERE were pretty cool though. Nice and flashy and LOUD!

I'm pretty much in LOVE with this stormy weather.

I bought these little beauties yesterday, but I still haven't figured out where I want to put them.

Charlie--livin' the good life.

Sea-Salt crusted  baked potatoes are in the oven. Just waiting for Jeff and Jax to get back from the store with a nice steak. 

I'm seriously thinking about going off meat...again. Not sure though.

Sleepy...

1. I'm so sleepy. Not exhausted..just the kind of sleepy where your eyelids feel heavy and weird.

2. I screwed up my back yesterday. Jeff rubbed the knot out last night but it has returned.

3. I have to work tonight, so a sore back is really not an option.

4. I put on the movie, "No Strings Attached" with Ashton Kutcher and Natalie Portman, and I can honestly say that after about 15 minutes...it's horrible. Just horrible. So off it goes.

5. Charlie keeps bringing me toys to throw. Doesn't he understand that I'm too tired and sore to throw? Sheesh...silly puppy.

6. My most favoritest blogger ever, had a baby and she's not posting pictures/info yet and it's killing me. lol

7. I'm bored. I need to write I think, but I have to get organized about it, and there in lies the problems. The ADD makes it hard for me to do that. Okay, that's not completely true..I'm being lazy about it.

Le Sigh.

Sore...

I am tired. I worked an over night last night, and I'm pooped. I'm enjoying the working though. Not a lot of hours right now, but that's okay. I'm sure it'll get better, and seriously, I'm not sure how many I want right now anyhow. I'm old, every part of my body hurts, and while I generally like that I'm getting physical exercise, this is bad. I couldn't sleep when I got home because I hurt so much, and this was after taking 3 ibuprophen.

Jeff had a work dinner tonight, so I ordered Pete-zah. Slacker today, fo sho!

To YOU..I will say this.

I love you. I think you are truly a kind, loving person. BUT..because I feel that way, it's a lot more disappointing to me when you get all judgmental on people. I can't believe that you don't see it. Like back in the fall. It wasn't enough for you to just say..."Hey..this is the way we do things, I hope you'll all respect our beliefs and if you don't too bad." You had to go ON AND ON about how evil those of us are who do things differently than you.. Lying to our children and such. How can you not see that as judging? And you never even apologized. Now I get why...because you're not sorry....because you did it AGAIN the other day. Cripes. If you're going to judge 90% of the population then at least have the guts to leave out the "but we don't judge" part. We ALL judge, from time to time, but at least we try to keep it to ourselves.

And just so we're clear. I will say something out loud and proud EVERY SINGLE TIME you pull this crap...because I expect better of you. Who are you trying to impress? You used to get mad at people who crammed their belief's down everyone else's throat on FB..and how you're doing it. Why did that change? Is this about your Mom? It's so weird...you're so different now than you were even a year ago..and I even went back and re-read a bunch of our old posts and messages. You are different..more cramming that religion in at every turn, more bragging about every little thing. More...we're perfect parents because we do things this way and if you don't do things this way then you all suck.

I'm not trying to be mean, just my observations.

Ehh..that's all I got.

Monday, Monday...

Blah today. I don't know why. I had a lot of right chest pain. I think maybe I have a pinched nerve or some such thing. Even had some pain going down both arms. I hope hope HOPE I feel better tomorrow. I have to work.

Ty stayed home today. He wasn't feeling well. Upset stomach, although I almost want to call shenanigans because he seemed to be feeling a lot better this afternoon.

Well, I just called in for Wednesday night, so now I'm working 4 days in a row. Oy vey. I think I'm way too old for this. :/

Today was rough.

We woke up around 2am because of a very LOUD and BRIGHT thunderstorm. Then Jaxon woke up, from what I thought was just the noisy storm. But about 15 minutes later he ran to the bathroom, and well, let's just say that mess continued until late this afternoon. I'm glad it wasn't the vomiting again though. That's just so rough on him. He seems a little better tonight. He had some soup and a banana, and it hasn't seemed like it wants to make any kind of a quick evacuation.

Jeff brought home Wendy's, so it was nice not to have to cook. I think that would have sent me over the edge.

I did do a pretty decent workout today. About 302 calories burned , so that made me feel good. It's nice to feel my body changing a little bit. I know I've lost inches, even if the actual scale hasn't moved a lot yet. Whatever...I'll take it.

Back to work at the BL's tomorrow night. It's killing me right now not to run up there and get my schedule for next week. I'm too lazy, though. It'll be there waiting for me tomorrow evening. Kathy was telling me that the nice lady I trained with on Wednesday is suspended and may very well get fired for letting someone not related to her use her discount. Ugh. Such a silly way to lose your job. I get that people want to be nice but if you've EVER worked in retail you know after about 5 minutes that you don't give out your discount. Such a shame.

Charlie was appalled when I put Frontline on him today. He looked so sad, like "Why did you do THAT?" lol Pauvre Puppyface.

Ty has David and Aaron spending the night tonight, although Aaron hasn't shown up yet. It was the worst night possible with Jeff and I having no sleep and a sick Jaxon, but it was hard to say no when he brought home an award today for the highest Social Studies grade in 3 terms. I was so proud. It also makes it hard to say no. My sweet boy!

I'm always right, just ask me, I'll tell ya!

I started my new job last night. I loved it. I mean, it's nothing special, but it felt good. Familiar good. I aced the Mastery Test for POS....100% cuz I'm awesome like that. I'm pretty impressed with me that I'm able to move today. It's a testament to the good workouts I guess. I've actually been slacking on the workouts...time to get back to it.

Been dealing with E. drama. She left the loser, and now she's all boohoo....I'm miserable. Ugh. I don't even have the strength to get into it. I've written her 2 scathing emails that I have NOT sent. She needs @ss ripping, but Jeff made me feel like maybe I shouldn't. Ugh. I'm not sure what I'll do. Part of me feels like..I'm her mother..I'll NEVER stay out of it. I wish I could, though. It's stressing me out.

I really wish I could have slept later this morning. I need to get moving around here, but I'm so tired. I woke up at 4:00am-ish. Poopy!

Random, but true:

  Happy Birthday (Yesterday), Noah, and Kymmy (today).

xoxo

13 Years...

My dad took his own life 13 years ago today.

It still hurts like it happened yesterday, and I miss him.

That is all.

We's has the interviews today.

I have a job interview at 11:30. I'm kind of excited, kind of nervous (even though I've been assured that if I got an interview I got the job. This is going to be VERY weird after 10 years of not really working. Especially working in the evenings. We'll see how it goes. ;)


~~

Edit: 4:49pm.

I's GOT'S the job!!! :D

This weather is Heaven!

Oh my stars, I'm loving this weather. (Do you like how I just channeled Samantha Stevens right there?)

Last night we went to a Saladmaster party. Lord have Mercy, it's the most expensive cookware on the planet. The electric skillet alone is over 900.00. Seriously pricey. The food cooked in it was fantastic though. You don't have to use oil at all. The chicken was yummy! Sorry, we're just not in the position to 'finance' some pots and pans right now.

On the other hand, we did have a lot of fun though. I love it here!

It's nice having Sam back from Las Vegas. We went to the Dollar Tree yesterday and had a ball. I love knowing people that you can have fun with doing simple boring things. Then the kids played outside with their loot for most the evening. It twas a good day.

I need to go clean the laundry room/move laundry to the dryer/start more laundry and I don't want to! I can't wait to get started! :)

Pink Eye and Headaches

I really need to start working on the book again. Maybe when the kids go back to school next week.

Note the swollen left eye.

Jaxon woke up with Pink Eye. My Pauvre Bebe. Got him right in to the Doctor, and 38 bux later, we're the proud owner of Cipro drops. He was a good sport about it, too. 2 drops every 4 hours for 7days.

I have a mother of a headache, and I still have to do a workout today. Grrrr.

Tyler's anxiously awaiting the arrival of his new phone via the USPS. I can wait, when it comes it just sux up an hour of my life getting it all ready for him. I can wait.

No Michigan trip now. SOOOOOO bummed. Was looking forward to spending lot's of time visiting with family and friends. Ty has Mock Trial Wednesday and allllllll day Saturday. Ugh. Over Spring Break. Stupidest @#$% thing I've ever heard of . And if he doesn't go, then they don't have enough people and they're disqualified. So alas, no Michigan trip. I can't imagine when I'll make it now. :(

The sky is dark, and foreboding, and I love it! Spring is awesome!

I'll leave you with this....

It's funny cuz it's TRUE! :)

Gingerbread Men in March?

Another 60-ish degree day in March. LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Makes me all warm and mush on the inside to think that in just a few short months I'll be floating in the pool. BLISS I SAY...BLISS!

Jaxon and Jeff are in the kitchen right now, making gingerbread cookies. They're super cute..I must say. Super Duper cute! (my boys, not The G-men) heh!

Laundry is on the agenda for the day, and a quick trip to the Tarjay, which I shall implement as soon as I'm finished with this post. I wanna go before it gets busy, and I get too tired. Speaking of tired.....

Metoprolol is an evil drug, and despite all the good it does, should be BANNED for just how TIRED and SLUGGISH it makes me feel. Good Lord. By noon I'll be useless. By 5pm Jeff will be telling me all the reasons I should NOT go to sleep. It's really just terrible. I feel like my brain's in a fog. Stupid medicine.

I want a hair cut. It's too long and too heavy and just hangs there.

Birthday cards...musn't forget birthday cards at Tarjay. Mom Niezgucki, Noah and Kymmy.

Oy!

F for Friday, F for fantastic!

I'm so happy this week is over. Really.

Had the appointment with Dr. B yesterday. Basically, my PVC's are low risk, so I'm going back on the dreaded Metoprolol (sp), and we'll re-visit in 6 months. Fine with me. I know I don't have any blockages, I know my heart is healthy, he told me I'm not going to drop dead. Fine. Let's move ON already. I'm taking the med at night though, it makes me SO sleepy.

The kids are on Spring Break. It's NICE so far. Jaxon has a little bit of a cold. David and Tyler are vacillating between our house and theirs, everyone's in a fine mood. Weather's even been warm and sunny, and if not warm, than certainly sunny....er...something like that.

Jeff took my van to work today, so I feel utterly trapped here, although I had no plans to leave. Just cleaning and working out today. The stupid exhaust broke on the car, so he's leaving work early so we can drop it off at the shop, where they will inevitably over charge us. We can't catch a break, I swear.

Kathy came over yesterday and told me they're still planning on interviewing me at BL's. Woohoo! Nice simple part time job, thank you very much. It'll help my family out a lot. We need to dig out, this last year's just kicked our butt.

I ordered Tyler's new phone last night, and I still need to take back the other one tonight. Maybe after we drop off the car...

Okay, back to cleaning...

Packed it in today

• Got Jaxon off to school
• Vacuumed the entire top floor
• Ironed
• Folded clothes
• Did a workout
• Made a grocery list
• Took a shower
• Went to Best Buy to check out phones for Ty, bought one, and will be returning it tomorrow. :/
• Went to Tarjay to get groceries
• Made a Sweet and Spicy Cucumber Salad (except I added tomatoes)

Yummy! :)

Then I made this:

http://budgetbytes.blogspot.com/2011/01/spinach-lasagna-roll-ups-801-recipe-114.html

It was DELISH!

And now..I'm DONE!

Jaxon's Robot

I've lost a few more pounds. Of course maybe it's just cuz I've been sick. I'm going to try and get back to my work out routine tomorrow. I found this..this morning. LOVE IT!

Very inspiring, indeed. :)

I'm off soon to Big Lots, Tarjay, and the Vitamin Shoppe. Yesterday's plans moved to today. It's sunny today, and I do feel quite a bit better. My mouth looks like ground round on the inside still, but overall I feel pretty good.

Jaxon and I built this...

Light up Robot. 

..it lights up. I'll take a picture of it tonight in the dark. It's pretty cute, and he had so much fun painting it and adding stickers. I had fun, too. Sometimes it's the little things. ;)

I WANT YOUR MONEY!

Jeff did the taxes today. It pretty much ruined the whole flippin' day. Not only because it was very complicated (Live in NY, work in CT, move to Iowa. Moving expenses..etc..etc), but because we owe like $700 bux to Iowa because he over did the deductions when we moved here. Not the end of the world, but, you know, with medical bills and such, who wants to hear about a $700 tax bill? Not me. Never me.

It's about time for Mommy to get a job. Once I get my heart straightened out, I'll be looking for sure. I can't stand being so tight financially. Not a good feeling. I won't mind too much, as long as it's just part time. It'll give me something to do.

Lord, give me strength.

Snow sux...now move along....

We (we being me) are feeling a bit better today. Throat is still very sore, but I have less of the over all sick feeling. The Augmentin is tearing up my stomach though. There has been several times today that I was so nauseous that I was in fear of vomiting. And vomiting with this strep situation, would have been crueler than death, for sure.

We got snow. BOOO! It's white, it's cold, it's H-E-A-V-Y! I'm so thankful for my 16 year old and his shovel. I personally think it's karma striking for the poor treatment of his sick mother and his little brother yesterday, but eh...whatdoIknow?

I was supposed to have my appointment with him...

...okay, so NOT him, his very handsome doppelganger, Dr. Brewer. lol He's not nearly so handsome, but close enough for me. :) I really wish I could have gone, especially since I was up until midnight with my heart thumping out of my chest to the point that I couldn't sleep. Apparently, they frown upon people with very contagious illnesses coming to their office and spreading germs to the other patients, whom are mostly elderly. Sheesh. HOW RUDE! (I keeeed, I keeeeed). So anyway, yeah...now it's March 8th.

Fine Fine.

Crap-tastic!

What a day!

Right out of the box I knew it was going to be crap...and crap it was.

-I get up to a house that would be quicker to turn upside down and empty than clean.
-Everybody's out of clothes, and I'm out of laundry soap.
-I find out that Andrew Breitbart passed away.
-I clean for hours, even though I am miserably sick (because Mom's and wives aren't allowed to get -  sick..apparently.
-The boys get home, and during the 15 minutes I wanted to myself for a hot bath...they fight, forcing me to raise my voice and further damage my poor swollen, puss filled throat. I cry. Jaxon cries, Tyler is in a huff.
-Then Jeff gets home, and I find out that he didn't get the email where I asked him to stop and get laundry soap, cat litter, and butter.
-And to top it all off..he brings home Burger King, of which eating half of it has me about in tears...AGAIN.

Thankfully, Jeff has taken Jaxon with him to the store, and Ty is at his friends, so the house is silent...yet again.

Le Sigh. Sometimes I just want a do over.

It's now after 7pm, and American Idol is on. I'm going to curl up with a comfy blanket and watch 12 people's dreams get crushed. Woohoo!

May the Angels Carry You Home

Andrew Breitbart.
 RIP Mighty Warrior.
3-1-2012

Davy Jones.
RIP
2-29-2012

Strep throat? REALLY??

How UNfair.

:(

Softballs, Cults and Puppies, Oh My!

I'm sick. As if there hasn't been enough going on. Sore throat (there's a softball in there I SWEAR), chills, slightly nauseous.

Well, it's always something.

I've been watching this show on National Geographic Channel on Cults. Specifically the one where Wayne Bent is the "messiah". Ugh, it's just horrid what these people do to these vulnerable people's minds. I don't understand that kind of blind faith, which now that I think about it, may explain why I have a hard time with almost every other kind of faith...

Hmmm.

Charlie Sanchez Beliveau the day he became a part of our family back in September. He is SO LOVED!

We were so tickled yesterday, because Jaxon brought home a note saying that even though the goal was to be to Level 12 in reading by the end of the quarter, he's on Level 20! They are OUT of 1st grade books for him to read. He's also at 99% proficiency (being able to read every word), where the goal was 95%. Smart little cookieface!

I make GOOD kids.

Jaxon and Erin in Davenport, Dec, 2011. She did the editing, Ty took the photo. :)

Jeff assures me he'll cover dinner tonight.

Oh, I hope he means it.

Laziness and Hunger Games

Here I've gone and done it again, let way too much time go by between posts. It's been a heck of a year. At some point I'll have to get it all down. Not tonight.

My friend Tiffany has started a blog, and it made me remember my poor neglected space here. So Thanks a LOT, Tiff. :) Seriously, this will be good. I really need to get my writing brain going again. Maybe I can actually find some creativity to put into the book. Wouldn't that be something? ;)

I read the Hunger Games this weekend, it was great. I read it mostly because I think the movie looks like it's going to be awesome, but now that I've read the book I will definitely see the movie when it comes out.

Exhaustion has set in, and it's only 8pm. This is how I know I'm old.